Thanks - just read this back and sounds so pathetic - need to pull myself together and get a grip of myself, surely it should not be as hard as i think!! Just don't understand why it is so hard to give up something that i hate - or forget how much i hate it. When other people have a hangover the last thing that they feel like doing is having a drink - it's the first thing i think of.
If it wasn't for my Son I would be a mess - he keeps me on the almost sane level! Well he stops me getting up at the weekend and having a drink - without him i would just get myself into that vicious circle.
I have got to stop this self pity and gain control. I must remember that the bad feeling far outweigh the feeling of a bottle of wine. Ahhhhhhh will this get easwier!!