Hey there Smith, come on man, you know the next step, you really do. And its going to be hard and scary, it will hurt, alot, and it won't even seem worth-while to see it through the night until you've done it. Then you'll find the mists start to clear and you may think it wasn't quite as bad as you thought it might have been. Then you can make it two days, and then three, and once you got a few behind you you'll find you have something worth having and keeping and adding to. It will be like collecting the rest of your life day-by-day. Good luck, friend, we all wish you well. Jim