Welcome Smith123. Oh, how I wanted to be able to control it. I tried so hard to have "just a few" now and then. It resulted in DUI's, health issues, and chaos. My life became out of control the older I got - I had no choice but to stop all together. I never thought it possible to live without my 'friend' - but I wasn't really living in the end. The fun & exhilaration I once felt from drinking was long gone, and I was killing myself.
I've only used SR for encouragement and support, do not attend meetings. For me, it's been enough. I hope you will find the answers you're looking for and will be happy with the outcome of your decision! Let us know how you're doing.