I knew I had a drinking problem and I tried to hide it from myself and others. I was negative and depressed and that is what alcohol will do. I have not seen the horrors that some have faced and have not lost everything but it was part of the reason I got divorced. Also, lost friends, angered and hurt others with my words and actions, embarrassed myself above and beyond, lost respect from others and more importantly I lost my own self worth/respect in the process.
Drinking is my enemy and it was only when I hated what I had become under the influence that I got realized - I am worth more then this.
You deserve more if you realize you have a problem. I understand the idea of a significant date but drinking is a 100% commitment and to become sober.....it has to be the most important thing in your life because this journey is about you. Support is essential but I guess for me......if I pick up another drink it is the end of the world. That is how much it means to me.
I wish you well.
Kim