Thanks, Ananda, for sharing that. You are living proof that one must be ever vigilant. That is so against my nature, unfortunately. I have said b4 that I am a better sprinter, than long distance runner, and that pervades everything in my life. I am a very "destination", vs "Journey" type of person. I know that I cannot apply this type of thinking to my alcoholism, but am not certain how to "un-program" my self, if that makes any sense. I try to be vigilant, try to monitor any resentments, focus on gratitude, stay in the moment, respond rather than react and surround myself with recovery (AA, books, workbooks, SR, etc). And it seems to be working, but only time will tell, I guess. I do know that, although I remember the hellhole vividly, I feel so good right now, that I want more good, and more good and even more good (how alcoholic is that???). No longer running "from" (which I did initially), but running "toward".....