Wake...freedom and destiny by rollo may might be a good read for you.
I know that sometimes i think i am reaching for my life's meaning when actually I am running from purpose...i think humans are tricky that way...
I know that I may never truley know what the purpose of life is or what my purpose in life is...but it is there..aknowledged or not.
Purpose seems to be fluid....no matter where i flow...i am gently course corrected.
Sometimes i find out that one small seemingly unimportant action has created a karma which has pulled another in a positive direction completely unknown to me.
I'm not sure I need to or am ment to know the purpose of life...I do need to listen to the small voice in my head/heart/soul...that says like some famous guy said....here i stand...i can do no other. I was told by a priest once...find the space to be....exaclty where you are...
ok drivil of early morning thoughts
