I know what you mean about the whole "drink at night, swear it off in the morning, then drink at night again" cycle. I've been doing that for years. Just getting out of all that negativity, alone, is a good enough reason to quit, nevermind the health concerns, and all that. It eats away at you. I always felt powerless in my life, like if I ever wanted to do something really great, it would just be more effort than I could possibly muster.
Rev