Thanks all for your posts!
I did go to my first AA meeting today and heard some great stories, some sad as well but it felt good.
I guess this time I will try to shut down the little voice with the bigbook (got my copy today) and understanding that I have no will against alcohol.
I definitely need to shape up so that will be a priority, working out. Outdoors activities sound good, i just need to gather a couple of sober friends to enjoy the sun.
I guess I have some catch up to do with my studies and work so I can keep my self busy. This is a good start.
I am excited to start this journey but a little afraid given that my whole lifestyle evolved around alcohol.
Thanks for the support!