Originally Posted by
Bored3 
And yet again it turns to this hour and I know that there is alcohol within my reach and I want to have a drink and watch the TV.
I'm 21 and have been this way for a couple of years now and am just angry with myself for not being able to stop this, I've always been a clever person and resisted and abstained from anything bad, it just doesn't make sense that I can't be like my friends are. I don't even feel the need to drink heavily when I'm in bars, just the comfort of knowing that there's some at home that I can drink and escape myself.
I really hate what I've done and am doing to myself.
I think you are doing yourself a great favor by knowing that there is a problem, it is a start and an accomplishment on it's own.
I have beaten myself up quite similarly and that never helped me. Trying to take action like I am now does! I am too early into my own sobriety to give you a lot of advice, but luckily we have all these great people here that have walked this path before us and who are willing to share their experiences.
Take care