Also I happen to believe we all know who we are deep inside, so there is no need to say it out loud to anyone. In the end.. in the silence (I also happen to believe it comes to everyone as well at some point) we can't lie to ourselves, the pattern is too clear, the hurt too real.
I happen to believe, everything you think of him, he already knows, most probably he has pulled similar stuff before and is smart enough to see how no matter who is around he ends up doing the same things. (Just like I do when I don't want to learn the lesson. We are all bound to repeat the same mistakes just with worse and worse consequences until we get it. Or until we die.)
Its between him and God/HP just like your issues are between you and God/HP. You can let go. I give you permission
