Just jumping to the end here..sry. I havent been on hardly at all in the past 4 mos. So I have not been able to keep up with everyone like I would like to.
I really like you. You seem like such a nice, gentle person.
I dont know if you have tried getting help yet.
I know you are grateful and it seems you really do want to be sober. But what are you doing to get it?
It takes alot of work and attention to get and stay sober.
Sry if I dont know what I am talking about. I just hate to see you suffer. Especially when it is mostly self inflicted.