Alcohol forces that . It can make an average day have meaning.
I've never found that to be true for myself. The only thing alcohol forced upon me was sleeping too much (passed out at odd times of day) and the huge regret I always felt when waking up horribly sick, again.
Maybe you're not ready to stop drinking, I don't know. Only you can say if you're ready to stop. When you are ready, we'll be here.
