Originally Posted by
grrl77 
Yeah, Lulu. You're right. I just miss him. It's like... watching the death of someone.
I know. I really do. If you have a higher power I would give this to them. I still pray for mine and that gives me comfort. But for now...this is my reality. This disease is a family disease. And it affects mentally, spiritually and physically.
I miss the man I thought he was. But there is no one home there anymore so I can only focus on me..But I still pray for his healing. I know reconciliation wont happen but I pray he has a miracle one day. I gave mine 8 years. Now I will give the next 50 years to myself...