Hi sobertimeforme
You'll find a lot of support here - and a lot of ideas.
I hope you find a way, or something, here that speaks to you...look at everything, and then whatever way you decide to go, follow that up with all your might and all your being...if for any reason that doesn't work - start anew with something else...
I think that's the way to do this - it certainly worked for me
We can recover
Here's some links on some recovery programmes for you to look at - it's not comprehensive but it may be a start
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...resources.html
welcome!
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