Welcome to SR and our Alcoholism Forum.
I think you are really wise to look at your drinking.
Here is a link you might find interesting.....
Alcohol and Brain
According to the U.S. Center for Disease Control.....
a person who drinks moderately has no more than
2 drinks daily for men....1 for women.
It makes no difference as to the type of alcohol
they all do equal damage to the brain and organs.
It's a toxic liquid.
This is true for all drinkers....not only alcoholics.
From my observation and experience....there is simply
nothing positive to be found in alcohol.
All my best as you decide what your future holds...