today is a bad day for me, full of self loathing, how did i get into this situation, why am i craving to drink, i hate the taste but the numbness that it gives me and drives my pain away just for a short time has such a pulling power,
for me today is a Saturday, the football is on tonight i love the football and i love to drink when i watch the football....
God, why am i ranting....what is wrong with me....
I just hate who I have become..... I feel like such a failure, I feel nothing....
Last night was night 4
