This is a powerful disease
I had two days going and anxiety out the whatever. My wife isnt (well who knows) an alcoholic, and she is a one glass or two per day- never ever seen her drunk. I had the shakes so bad last night that I drank wine- about 2 glasses - and my withdrawals went away...I KNOW they are going to get me today. This freeking cunning disease. I woke up again this morning with my normal 'no appetite, anxiety, wish I could throw up (not normally, just today)
feeling. I am going to ask her to stop for a month or so...when that craps around me I cave in the first couple of days. She is a sweetheart, and will do anything for us I think- so I think she will. I feel so weak??? but I am not, I do good at my work, always come through with good results, physically fit with the exception that alchohol has become my brains obsession- I dont even know why. I am weak. Just updating...
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