Many thanks to each and every one of you who posted.
I have been looking at the replies over the weekend and they all have something I can take from them.
I went to a different meeting last night to the usual ones I have been going to. I met again the lovely woman I met on my very first meeting, the one who gave me a big cuddle.
I asked her to sponsor me as I could no longer stay stopped on my own. She was a bit taken aback at first, but said she would be honoured to be my sponsor. She texted me after the meeting to thank me for asking her, saying I would be helping her as much as she will be helping me. I feel so happy!
I have to keep in daily contact with her. We have a similar story, so can relate well to each other.
I am going to do this.......I am 2 days sober and this time...I am going to stay sober. With help from my sponsor, my HP, and anything she asks me to do.
Thank you all...sorry for being so pathetic.
Blessings xxx