With my relationship with my ABF, I always go back to "I just love him so very much. I love those times when everything's clicking. I feel SOOO comfortable with him, and trust him - emotionally - with my stuff, life stuff" But I think if we can stand at a distance and look at the relationship from afar, like it's someone else, we will see a different picture. Maybe that stuff that I feel about the relationship, just isn't enough for it to be as satisfying as a r.ship should be.