There was an occasion around ten years ago I went out drinking at Hallowe'en time. (So, costumes.) That is one time that I am aware of that I was definitely in black-out mode. Being on my keister all of a sudden when I thought I had been dancing. Then ending up in the passenger seat of my car without the head gear (obviously a good seating arrangement instead of me doing the driving). I can clearly remember particularly hilarious moments though and I can still smile back on them. There is a sense of misfortune nearby though, in those memories, like I was digging into a pit further and further.....I was in a bereavement period back then and I remember saying how I felt like I was released into freedom. Not really, and not for years afterward. Onward
