Understand what you are saying. When I said, he prefers other women (I was actually saying it in a joking manner)
I guess for me, Im nearly 50, porn is not something that I encountered much in my life. I married the man I met at 17, who wasnt into it, divorced at 34, met my now partner 14yrs ago.
My life has had its ups and downs and this stuff doesnt come into it. We just dont watch it together etc etc. He never asked me too but denies it if the subject comes up. Embarrassed - dont know.
Its not something i want to do either, I dont need it and yep, it bothers me that he gets off on this. Why, because we havent been that intimate for years and maybe this is why. I use to blame myself that he didnt want to be intimate with me . What have I done to upset him now, maybe Im just not sexy enough, too old, who the heck knows. Or just maybe this is what he just prefers to do and I'll have to decide what I am able to live with.
What I cant really understand is that he has treated me like a queen, tells me he loves me everyday, holds my hand, all that kind of stuff, yet, when its bed time, hes too tired or whatever the heck it is. Maybe Ive just answered my own question, hey!