Today my whole body feels numb. Yesterday I found out my partner of 14yrs prefers other women.
Just when I thought my whole world was falling apart, another kick in the head. Oh well, Ive got use to this over all these years I guess.
Strange thing though, even though this one hurts too, I dont feel that ugly anymore. Tears a few, yep, drank myself to sleep (it helped). Something else to focus on instead of my sisters death? Oh no, I wont do that either. Just somebody else I cant trust again.
Sat outside in the dark at 4am this morning wondering whether I caused any of this. What was I doing wrong? No one on this planet I can trust to talk to and Ill have to continue on my own, like I did when I was a kid.
But Im not sure if I want to do this anymore. I'll think about it.