Nellie I'm wishing you all the best. I too struggle with a drinking spouse who has no intention of stopping. Yes it's our journey, thanks for pointing that out. I'm at my wits end with this again too. The never ending roller coaster ride.
It would be great if we lived in a perfect world. When we needed support from our loved ones it would be there. Sounds so simple to me.
Good on you. Keep moving forward. I hope to also. I'm not new to recovery message boards. I've had the best help ever. But keep flopping backwards for some reason. As a matter of fact my journey started at this message board years ago. Something has guided me back again.
So just know you're in GOOD hands here. Best support ever, which you've probably figured out by now lol.