I was once invited to join the Instant Gratification Society but I turned it down... cause I wouldn't get my membership materials right away...
I understand where you are. I too wanted everything to be better right away, but it takes time. A good analogy I heard here was if you walk ten miles into the woods it's going to take more than just a few steps to get out again. So true.
Try to keep in in the moment, live just for this day as if it's all you've got. Make Today all it can be. You'll get your two months, it'll just come one day at a time. So make the best of each day as it comes. I'm pullin' for ya!
