Why am I sitting here crying? Crying and crying and crying. When I was drinking/drugging I never cried EVER except for during movies. It's always been curious to me that I allowed myself tears then but never anytime else. I'm having a hard time being able to feel my emotions again. The good ones are great, but everything else needs to die. Blah..tonight has been a roller coaster. Wish all of this would stop so I could feel normal again. I don't want to obsess over alcohol anymore. It's driving me insane. I'm trying to live one day at a time...one minute at a time...but it isn't letting up. When do I stop thinking about it all the time??????
I'm going to go to a meeting on Sunday and see if it helps. My thought process is so ****** up right now.