Neo, do you still do something with music, even though you are staying away from activities that you associate with the destructiveness that you are now free from?
I think "it" will be worth it too. I wouldn't want you to be different (or gone). At one point a few weeks ago, when I would read you, it seemed like I was reading a poem even though you weren't writing in verse. Then I saw you mention being involved in music a lot, and that made sense to me.
I used to be proficient in music when I was younger (even younger than you). I can remember when I switched "streams" I told myself it would probably be better so that I stayed away from drug addiction. Meanwhile, I had never even had a drink before. Then look what happened.
