Hello Limbo, welcome to SR! You will find a lot of support here. As you keep reading other's posts here, you will see people in similar situations who are able to succeed in their struggle to remain sober. AA is great, but if you don't have access, posting and reading on SR is a great alternative.
Like you, many of us have repeatedly tried, failed and tried again. Read Dee's post here as a great recent example:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ouncement.html
You say you are looking for friends to share your experinces and to talk to? You've found them here. You can win this!
BBR