Thank you so much for your advice it is so helpful and comforting. I am gonna try to focus on me which is what I can control and I am going to trust my gut, three days ago I thought I was going crazy by accusing him of being on something only to find out I wasn't crazy I was right. I know the signs and I am gonna trust in myself. I guess he has to come to the realization that he is the one that abused his trust with his doctor and me so, therefore he has to face the consequences of that. I am gonna try and find a meeting around me that I can go to because I think that would help me so much. thanks for your kind words of advice.