Originally Posted by mjohn

Good for you, Tribal. Seems you really want to make a change, as difficult and confusing as it is. Frustrating even. I'm just a rookie here, and from reading other people's stories, it's amazing how in fact it only gets better and better. Just remember that changes are just that...you'll need to compromise. As a result, though, you should reward yourself. After all, it's not punishment. It's a decision, your decision, and, unlike other decisions, this one needs reinforcement. So treat yourself from time to time, especially when you have urges - eat a brownie, buy shoes, whatever. Just don't forget about you.

Bottom line, though, is that change, especially the kind you want, doesn't come easy. But if you want it, it won't be as hard as you think.