I can't believe how much reading things on this forum has helped me.
I was so afraid that I had to believe in a Christian God in order to get sober. Along with alcohol, the idea of believing in God weighed on me so heavy. I always thought, " Well, my brain is not meant to believe...so, I will never get sober...and I will die." Reading what other people have written here...I know I don't have to think that anymore. I can admit to myself what I am and do what I need to do to fix it.
For anyone new that is reading this..PLEASE STAY HERE!!!
I am only 2 days sober, but that is more than I have been for years. My body feels strange and I am still pretty confused but I feel something other than addiction right now. I hope it lasts. (Well, not the body part. This kinda stinks.)
I want to thank everyone on here. Normally my eyes fill up with tears because I am so depressed with life and my mind is filled with mistakes and regret. Right now....my eyes are filled because I can see hope for the first time.
Thank you all so much,
Michael