Hi and welcome!!
As many others have said, you will find a lot of people here who understand what you are going through and can offer a world of support. Though these have already been raised here, I think it's worth re-iterating a few points that I have found to be especially true:
1.) Alcohol is not a part of your identity. It really isn't. In any way.
2.) I LOVE what HumbleBee said: It is easy? Hell no - not always. It is worth it? Hell YES - always. And that's the bottom line! It is always worth it.
Hang around and talk to us and get some ideas and support. You can do whatever you choose, and I hope you find yourself on a sober path. It's worth it. I wish you much luck and happiness.