Originally Posted by
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I'm on meds for depression, anxiety, and bipolar - and of course they don't work as they should if I'm drinking. Now that I'm sober my meds work as they should and my depression and such is pretty much under control.
I also don't think that changing your meds will help much as long as you keep drinking. Alcohol ruins the good effects of the meds as it's a depressant.
As far as your wanting to quit/not wanting to quit - you'll only quit when YOU really want to be sober MORE than you want to drink. It sounds to me like drinking isn't doing you any good, only creating problems in your life. I sure hope you can decide on a sober life. It's so much worth the effort it takes to stay sober. I hope we can give you the support and information you need to decide to make your life better by giving up the drink. Alcoholism will never get better on its own, it can only get worse. I hope you can decide to stop drinking before something bad happens to 'make' you stop.
Welcome to SR!
I'm hoping once I see the Dr. I can talk to him too about my alcoholism and see if he can help with me. Honestly - I don't want meds for it (such as antabuse) because for one: if I decide I'm going out to drink one day, i just wont take it, and for 2: If i do take it and hit a trigger (being around people that are drinking, going to my sis-in-laws house, etc) I'll be dumb enough to drink. I'm kinda a glutton for punishment. Its like do this now, worry about the consequences later.
And honestly, I don't want to be sober, I feel the need to get a "high" everyday - just because my sober life sucks (with the bipolar disorder) I enjoy being drunk/high more than I do being sober. Its just now that its affecting my life - I really have no other choice. I don't want to be a disappointment to my friends, family, etc.