I used to get along with my son's father when he was high (and I wasn't - I was pregnant and clean). Finally I decided I wanted more out of relationship. Something inside me just clicked and I wasn't willing to play second fiddle to a drug anymore. I decided I was worth more than that and I deserved more in life.
This site, and another one similar to it, was so helpful to me throughout my whole journey - when I thought I could make things work between us for the sake of our baby, when I accepted that it just wasn't going to work, getting through the pain of breaking up, AND now, dealing with him as a ex (who pops up now and again because of our son).
I hope you stick around and I hope you keep an open mind to everything you learn here.
I also encourage Alanon meetings. So often we expect the addicts in our lives to change and work recovery. But if we aren't willing to do it ourselves then I think we are being hypocrits.
Welcome!