Mybody, I recognized a lot of things I have thought to myself many times. "Starting out" here sounds like a good decision to me. You will find a lot of support. You won't be alone in the process. Maybe you can start out "small" instead of planning specific lengths of time that you need to be away from alcohol. If you give yourself a few days and just listen and interact here, take notice of how you feel in comparison to when you wrote your post and see what you think.