MJohn you are doing so well, I am trying to draw strength from your posts if you don't mind. I have drunk nightly for so many years now I can't seem to get my head around NOT doing it, but my worst days are Tuesday and Thursday, I often start at 9am, my husband and safe person (I am agoraphobic) goes to work those days and I am so alone in our new town. I will need support more than willpower, but I am happy that you are doing this....there are quite a few people that I am reading about and getting courage from. Someone said 'a minute at a time.....that will be my goal today...deal with the panic and not drink for as long as I can....keep up the good work.