This is a man who has physically, verbally, and emotionally abused the o.p. for a long time.
She's been practicing 'restraint' for years already. It's time for something different.
M, I hope you will gather your energy to wrap a support system around yourself (parents, counselor, women's domestic violence center, college advisor, legal help, al-anon) to free yourself from this person's poisonous control of your life.
You deserve so much better. You are a loving individual who deserves someone who doesn't abuse her. And there are a lot of people around who would love to help you, once you share your story. Don't be afraid to open up to the people in your life who can help you.
Sending you hugs and strength,
GL