It does not bother me if you pick apart what I say, no worries.
I understand what you are saying about step 1, and that what I said did not encompass the whole of its meaning. You say, if I see there is chaos and I want to stop it then to quit drinking.
Which is exactly what I did. I had a sincere desire to get control of my life, and I quit. I don't feel powerless, but rather I feel empowered. I do believe that I cannot drink, that it is not good for me. I also believe that I have the ability to not drink if I so choose. The place where there is lack of control in regards to alcohol is after the first drink. That is where MY powerlessness lies.
So I guess maybe the problem is that I don't know that I am screwed. And I don't really see any way to prove otherwise except for going out and drinking again. But I have no desire to do that, so I feel stuck in a no mans land. Not screwed enough to be a proper alcoholic, too screwed to be a normal drinker. Awesome.