Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I spent 20 years like that El C - exactly like that - and in my case I lost a career, and I lost people and things I cared about, because basically I wanted to drink...I was determined to drink but without the negative consequences.
If I had listened, if I had set aside my pride, if I had admitted and faced my fear of being sober, my life would probably have been this good 10 years earlier, and I may not have lost as much as I did, or destroyed my body so comprehensively.
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This is what I am thinking. Even if I go on a weekend binge with mates, I find that the hangover, even without withdrawals, stays with me for days on end. That never used to be the case so I was successful at whatever I did. But now it's clearly getting in the way of things. That's why I want to stop. The difficulty of stopping at this stage is that you try and convince yourself that you're not quite there yet. When I need to get into my skull is that "there" will creep up on me and the wrong time and have lasting consquences.
37 hours and counting......!