I didn't even get to the part of reading others responses.. your post made me cry deep in my soul... It is like you are me.. I am you.. sad.. sad.. I mean, I could have written it right down to the.. he is in a warmer climate.. to... this.. (which is eating me like a cancer) ~~~~>>>
One of my biggest fears in life is to settle for someone who is good and kind and than have the true love of my life ( him) get better and be stuck with someone I just like but not love
I think I need to rethink why I even approach anything that even looks like moving forward until I address that issue... (the one you so pointed out.. and so very well!!).
It will all be ok.. it has gotten a lot better after 20 months..