I already confirmed my assistance with BF. We are excited!
A girl friend gave me a red flower hair pin, I am excited thinking about buying a flattering summer dress that matches it. And to give myself a manicure and pedicure
I was thinking "what would make my mom proud if she could see me?" that would be going Nordic and acting very elegant and educated with them as if they were strangers (which they are). Of course not pushy or trying to befriend them, just like saying "hi" if I'm saying hi to everybody for instance. Meanwhile I'll go back to my letting go visualizations....
Thanks all for your input, kicks on the a$$, it makes such a difference in my life to be able to come back here and now you all get how it is like. Its funny but we also got a Jack daniels bottle so we will take it with us.... as it is I am going back to my own social drinking, now its very clear to me its all about the person, alcohol itself never did anything.