Welcome to SR Paula - you'll find a lot of support here
Sorry for your loss.
Good to see another Aussie tho.
Noone here can tell you if you're an alcoholic - but if you think it's a problem, you're come to a good place.
There are a number of online self diagnostic tests for alcoholism. They're not conclusive but they may help you get a better perspective.
here's one
Michigan Alcohol Screening Test (MAST), Revised
It can take a while to feel better sometimes, too. Don't hesitate to go back to yr doctor if you're concerned...and maybe stick to potato scallops LOL
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