In AA, we are often asked to examine WHY we want to do around that atmosphere.
I think it'd apply here, as well.
It's more important, I think ... than actually going.
Is to determine WHY it's a 'deal' at all.
Were it me -
if I felt even the slightest sneeze of a twinge about being near an ex,
I wouldn't go if Jesus was making his comeback appearance there.
But if it started bugging me
like it seems to be bugging you -
then I'd have to go inside and talk to myself and find out
what the deal REALLY is.
But that's just me.