Yeah....it really is hard. You can't 'solve' alcoholism.
You can do this, Carrie. You must want it more than you want any other thing in the world. You must. And, when you do it....it's like a huge weight has been lifted from your shoulders. Things really do look differently.
Life is livable sober. I just can't put into words how awesome sobriety feels. I so wish I could have done it when my kids were small.