Ekat - are you still around? I know you are really scared of detox and i understand. Addicts esp. are super sensitive to pain and w/d can be a very scary thing. Unfortunately there is no miracle drug or 'pain free' answer here - but how about a suboxone/subutex assisted detox or opiate replacement therapy that I and others here have mentioned? I was scared like you, and this helped me. Also, if you go to a medical detox, they can help with 'comfort' meds to ease some of the w/d pain. Also counseling and group therapy f2f can really help--just talking to others in person who are going through the same thing. I promise there is a light at the end of this tunnel. I know it doesn't seem that way right now, but there IS a way out of this mess, and it's so much better once you get past the physical part. Will you please check in so we know you are okay??