lostmyway, I thought I had gotten to the stage where I was managing my drinking and then a whole load of bad things happened in my life. Sometimes these situations are there to test us and, perhaps, remind us that we aren't yet ready to face the true challenges of recovery. You will be there one day, just as I hope I will. But, and this is a big but, it doesn't mean you don't have the same desire and fight in you that other successful RA's have had.