You are not stupid! And you deserve kindness!
LOL..I know I learned all my lessons through DIRECT experience and rarely on the first or 10th time...
that's okay. I wanted the right things but didn't have the clarity of mind and heart to sort through the rubbish.
You sound down on yourself, please don't let his ugly words get you down like that.
I was with an abusive guy, I understand. I got to where when he was spewing garbage I would say outloud over and over...what you say is a reflection on you not on me...
I didn't help the situation, I still needed to get out..but I did need to reject those ugly black hurtful things that came out of his mouth.