Hi Dasha........I guess I missed your previous posts but I can totally relate to being drunk and saying inappropriate things. My problem was calling people in the early morning hours--usually after the bar closed. Talk about humiliation--having people call me the following day and ask if i remembered calling them ---which sadly most of the time I had no clue what they were talking about. Thank goodness I no longer have to do that anymore. I think if you haven't tried AA yet--well, what could it hurt? It might be worth going to a few meetings to see if that might help. Hope you continue to post and seek recovery even if you should stumble here and there. I didn't get recovery overnight. It has been a bumpy road yet I am still moving right along. Keep moving forward. We do recover.