Thank you for returning, Anonym. I had a feeling it was something like that. I am upset that I didn't copy your posts, because they were very helpful.
Sometimes, I think that I am easily identified on here, but I am at the point that I don't care. I don't have a lot of support. Actually, I don't have any support except for a government agency that is advocating for assistance and the kind people on here.
It's strange: I came into this world unwanted. I was turned over to a woman who severely abused me daily.
I fought with everything I had since I can remember (at 3) and made sure I got a great education, and a great marriage.
The falling apart of the marriage left me depressed, isolated, and near-destitute.
It is very hard for me to keep fighting. I don't know what I'm fighting for anymore. I am losing hope.