Originally Posted by Electriciandude

I apperciate the quick response and know this is where I need to be.I have only gotten clean when a judge or p.o has threatened to lock me up so I would fake it till I'll made it.I am a very selfish person I've finally admitted and my back is against the wall now so my first reaction is fear of trying to to succeed and falling short once again letting everyone down.I went to a couple meetings last week and just listened and it was good to hear that I wasn't alone but I was on adderall and felt like a hipocrit.sorry for ramblin just overwhelmed!thanks