Not really sure what it IS that you are doing Ded that qualifies as "trying"
Thinking that you would like to be a non drinker at some point in time is *not* trying.
As far as taking the time off work that you will obviously need to do, no one is indispensable. It all comes down to you. Do you really want to get and stay sober? If so, stop lying to yourself and get whatever help that you will require and do it.